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When they think of me
I hope they think of your face
That’s the only real thing that ever mattered anyway.
I remember you sat and you watched
As I fucking fell apart
Like it couldn't be stopped so you
Hardly fucking fought.
I tried to claw my way out
But you just watched me drown
As the ocean in my head
Kept dragging me down
Sinking
Below
Let me drown in the undertow
It’s a shame, such a shame
Such a God damn waste
I can’t remember a fucking thing
like the lines of your face
or the way you fucking taste.
It’s a shame, it’s a shame
But I guess it’s fine,
The last thing I want
Is you on my mind.
I can’t stand another fucking day
Fuck.
I know I’m a failure
Erase me, move on
I know I’m to blame
for everything that went wrong
FUCK IT ALL
Still alone here after all these years,
Still drowning in sorrow, still coated in fear.
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When I first met you,
You didn't know better
This is my fault,
I made you this monster.
But that's just what I do;
Kill the things that I love
Use them as a crutch until they're shriveled up.
Fuck.
Take my fucking life
and break it
in two
A perfect fucking picture
of me
and you
I try to change
I try to lose my place
I try to destroy my past without leaving a trace
But I can't alter my face
Or erase my fucking name
Just like I can't forget
The mistakes that I made
So what now?
I keep asking the same fucking question
What now?
Every answer still devoured by depression
Death is just the answer when my whole life’s been in question.
(STILL HERE. STILL OBSESSED.
STILL NERVOUS.)
STILL A WRECK
GOD DAMNIT
So tell me
Are you warmer by his side
Than you ever were at mine?
I could write a million one-liners
Pointing their fingers at you
But the sad sad truth,
I still don't know what do to
I'll do my best to move on
I'll do my best to stay strong
But it's too hard to stand straight
When I've been broken all along
I just want you to know
If I could go back to the start
I'd do the whole thing different
And we'd never fall apart
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I
Can't
Even
Recall
Being
At home
In my
Own skin
It
Was
Long
Before
I let
These
Demons
In
I wake up every morning:
Same scowl on my face
Same demanding voice
Says "you're a damn disgrace"
Nagging at my mind
Trying to pull me below
No surprise when
Everything I love has let me go.
Deprived
Of everything that kept me alive
I'm still not sure how to carry on
When you're not by side
When my eyes lose color
And my flesh fades to grey
Don't save me,
Just let me slip away
Deprived.
There is no happy ending
Only nothing, and nothing, and nothing
When I decide I want to die
I will not turn back
I will not look to the sky
I'm a bomb about to blow
But when I'm gone you'll never know
Don't be scared
Everyone dies
Let me fall
Let me rot
It's too late
I've given you all I've got
Everyday I wish I had the guts to give my soul away
And everyday I wish the Black would overwhelm my mind and stay
But here I sit and wish
Upon a star that does not shine
And here I sit and wish
Upon a star that does not shine
Life is
Negligible
Insignificant
Disgusting
Valueless
Suffering and torment
Melancholy
Ignorance
Jealousy
Sorrow
Everything
Nothing
DEATH
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4. |
IRRITA - Unconscious
03:22
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Follow me, now
Into the Darkness
I will show you light
Led astray
I am all alone
Yet I continue
Apathy
Rots my soul and mind
I push forward
Disregard interesting thoughts
Tongue in cheek
I am discouraged
Reticent voices torture me in my sleep
Uncontrollable thoughts of death
Trying to understand this empty feeling that rots my chest
Forsaken me
Only darkness fills this void
I am not concerned
Unconscious
I am not concerned
I am not concerned
I am not concerned
I am not concerned
I am not concerned
I am not concerned with Death
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5. |
IRRITA - Ghoul
03:47
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My obsession with the end
Has been destroying me
Death's become a parasite
That just won't let me be
Gnawing, clawing at my brain it's
Driving me way past insane
I'm giving up, i'm giving in
I try my best but never win
Tired of feeling this way
It gets worse day to day
Misery's consuming me
Held back by apathy
Pushing forward
Going no where fast
Going nowhere fast
Drenched in worn-out flesh
Beaten scarred and weak
Everything my future holds is wretched, dark, and bleak
No will to go on
I just want to die
Waiting for the day that I cannot hear, feel, or see
My dreams swallowed whole
Hope ripped from my soul
Weary from my arduous and harrowing journey
Trapped inside my mind
Wishing this would end
This will surely be the end of my entirety
Feeble, frightened, and forgotten
My heart, my soul- cold and barren
Sickness, throughout, mind and body
Hopeless, broken- melancholy
Inadequacy
Is like a disease
Giving up
Giving in
Life drains from my veins
It pours and pours until I'm sane
Neglected
Trembling
Nervous wreck
On the edge
All alone
Nothing left
Fade to black
Dead and gone
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