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sakura
03:00
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i place my hands on the walls around me/in this endless white abyss, losing consciousness/i’m scared that if i open my eyes i’ll see the fragile walls that line my life/i’m a slave to the weight bearing down on me/i’m okay with the way i’m crumbling/i felt my mind isolate that day/i felt my mind isolate from the rest of me/mute my head, mute my mind, give me somewhere to hide/slit my throat so i won’t choke on these words/i can’t cope/i swear to god if i don’t move i’ll melt into the fabric of this room/can you see it squeezing pulling down you/can you feel it, sweat is pouring down your face/i swear to god if i don’t move, i’ll melt into, i’ll melt right through
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phlegm
04:07
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i fought too hard to numb the pain/i just can’t risk going back again/existing in delusion/just cant find the solution/there’s no solution/i grind my teeth to dust because i’m sick of always acting so tough/this cloud of misery hanging over my head has got me screaming for the end/has got me screaming from the rafters/lests not forget lets not pretend/this sinking feeling in my chest has got me a panic away from death/some days i lack the motivation to get up onto my feet/some days i can’t see straight so i miss whats happening/these lines in front of my blur/these sounds erupt as if everything is trying to be heard/i cannot live i cannot die/these thoughts there like having razors in your brain/i just cannot see fucking why/cant stop the bleeding cant stop the pain/losing my grip/my mind slips/i slip back into a state of dissociation/escape the panic escape the stress/i just cant deal with the world the paranoia just wont rest/ive been awake for days/my bodys giving out and i feel ashamed/my mind is buckling from the weight/the paranoia is in my veins
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ringleader
03:20
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we worship the strange/the oddities/the ones that think a different way/ringleader, direct the show/i wanna see a different world - lords of the grove/tip the cup and let the essence flow into my hands, into my bones/i melt just like a candle/don’t shake now/enjoy the ride/ringleader please tell me that ill be alright/lords of the grove take mercy on my soul/my mind starts to corrode/the voices won’t let go/my mind is racing and they wont let go/take me to a place where i wander and stutter/where i drift like a ghost/no ambition or goals/no sorrow/no hand around my throat/where i never feel alone/i cant focus this moment is broken/i lose sight of the world around me/collapsing down and down and down and down
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i kinda feel like im caught in a loop/living everyday just like deja vu/i cant even tell if im spiralling down or if i took the jump and finally hit the ground/am i rolling in the grave/tossing and turning in the endless sleep/waiting for someone to wake me up/dead and seeing through this construct that ive built in my mind/eternally drifting in time/none of this makes sense to me anymore/im playing both sides of this endless war in my mind/so i tear at my skin and dig to my heart just to let my soul out of the dark for a minute just to feel like im human/oh god im so broken/i need to wake up/i cant deal with this existential nightmare anymore/i cant live in this dream/the cracks are to vivid/just to extreme/i stare into the abyss/ i fell in love with the nothingness in my mind/i feel like im jesus/i feel like im a saint/time travelling absent just negative spave/all these warning signs im going insane, i’m going in-/with each breath i take/my lungs collapse and come alive again/eternally ressuracting this existential and irrational action/serrated and torn/skin pulled tight and worn/like a shapeshifting masquerade in an endlessly self harming state/gods tongue is twitching again/so fragmented im barely a man/for i was lost before i even could stand/understand ive tried my best to make these ammends/never ending/oh god please pull me out
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little boy
02:57
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sometimes i feel like theres a thousand versions of myself/a thousand different people/a thousand different hells/why do i only feel things in extremes/its either everything or absolutely nothing/i feel my mind corrode and i just wanna know/does life get better from here or am i doomed to choke/i dont know what its like to feel like myself/i feel like a living reflection of somebody else/my mind is broken and im grasping for sanity/im hardly human/trapped eternally in agony/i see no future/cant find my grip through the smoke/this haze has become all that i know as home/birthed into sleep/comatose/i cant see past these psychotic overtones/is my mind collapsing/how would i know/is there a point in asking what made me like this/so wheel me through the gates of this hell/the blinding lights paralyze/i cant believe this is my life/doctor stay away from me/im not crazy i just need a bit of sleep/doctor please send me home/doctor i swear theres nothing wrong/doctor stay away from me
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bukowski
03:18
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trying to get high like my idols/trying to get high for survival/and when i die dont make me viral/so in your eyes ill stay humble/unmarked grave with some flowers on it/poppies cut into xanax/into drugs/i dont fuck with that shit/stole to many parents from their kids/ive got problems and they dont mean shit/i hardly even noticed when i started depending on the drugs to sleep/i hardly even noticed when i started pretending your love still calls to me/evil me oh yeah i know/im nothing more than flesh and a mess of chemicals/evil home sterio i still think your broke/who would want to be such a control freak/who would want to be such an asshole/ill be alright/and i open my eyes/im gonna wake up from this dream/ill be just fine/im not dead/im just waiting for someone to listen/im all up in my head/so fucking stuck in this prison
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waking up
02:57
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(Instrumental)
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